Ok, today has got to be THE worst day of my life. I get a phone call at 9 am, from the prosecuting attorneys office saying that "so-n-so" Is requesting a paternity test for MyKenzi Lynnette ******, so IM like, WHAT!?!? So, i have an appointment to go downtown to speak with my new freaking case worker next week. So, i get off the phone, and i call "so-n-so" and confront him about the situation, He says to me, "I'm not paying a darn thing because im not so sure that MyKenzi is mine!" So i instantly break down into tears and tell my mom what is going on. Well a little while later, i get a phone call from "so-n-so" and he says, "if that child is mine, ill pay child support, but i want hard evidence that the money is going to her, and if at any time during the process, if i feel that mykenzi would be better off with me, dont think for one minute that i wont aplly for full custody, and rid you of your full maternal rights!" So now im really pissed, not 4 freaking weeks ago, he wanted nothing to do with me or her, now he doesnt think she is his, and he is threatening me in all kinds of ways! know that he would have to prove me to be an unfit mother to get full custody, and all this will take a while, but
:( the thought of things not going smoothly, and her getting taken away from me is just horrifying! Ive pretty much been in tears all day.
And to add to the situation, i have to have an ultrsound tomorrow morning to see if the cyst that appeared during my prengnacy is gone, then my 6 week checkup on thursday, if the cyst is still there and poses a problem, then ill have to have surgery, and be off of work for longer. If it is gone i can get right back to work, but im paranoid to leave mykenzi with a sitter for so long, even if it IS my mom or sis, i ahvent been away from her for more then 3 hours at a time since she was born.
and now im dealing with dumb*** doctors who are telling me to give my 6 week old child cereal, and then hearing that it is way too early! I know now y my dad hates doctors, i caled today to bump her appointment up to next week so that i can talk to him sooner and ask my list of questions i have going!
and mykenzi's belly button thing is still there, they did the silver nitrate last monday at the office, andsaid it would dry up, turn blackand fall off, well for the most part, the whole thing is black, but it is still connected down at the very bottom of her belly button! im paranoid that during her bath or diaper changes, im gonna pull on it and hurt her somehow, but her doc said to give it till next weeks appointment and he will look at it then!!! AARRRGGGHHHHHHH!!!! i literally feel like my head is gonna spin off of my shoulders! i quit smoking when i found out i was prengnat, and the way thins are going right now, im having to deal with major self control issues, because i just wanna light one up so freaking bad!!! Wehn the doc gives me his explanation, and i tell him that i have more than a handful of angry mommies that wanna know why, ill post and let you all know, lol
*sigh* sorry this was so long, but thank you for those who take the time to read it, it felt good to get that out!